11.00 pm
Hmfff..
I thought to myself, "I wanna sleep early tonight…"
Database homework? "check"
Tax memo project? "check"
Studying for tomorrow’s midterm? "…"
…
..
shhhhhh*tt!
ngapain aja lo drtd, niiiiit?
I thought to myself, "Im not gonna sleep (again) tonight.."
Kenapa si suka banget ngegossipin orang?
Kenapa jugaa mesti ketawa-ketiwi dibelakang mereka, ngmgin hal2 “ga bener” yg mereka lakuin.. yg “ga wajar” mnurut standard “budaya timur” lo yg lo bangga2in?
Kenapa sii suka usil banget ngikutin perkembangan mereka,
katanyaaa.. lo ga peduli?
dulu lo bilang.. “udah deh, lo dah tau resikonya apa kalo si ini tau, ga penting banget lo terlalu jujur.. urusin aja urusan lo kenapa si, ngapain lo pusing2.. gue tau maksud lo baik, lo sayang sama dia..blahblahblah”
trus kok situ yg nasehatin, situ yg GA konsisten, trus situ jg yg bacotnya gede?
gue udah diem, gue turutin nasehat2 lo.. tp yang dpt getahnya kok gue jg?
even when you denied you spread it, at the end of the day.. the-one-whose-name-shouldn’t-be-spoken knew it anyway…
I don’t know who did it, but I STRONGLY, STRONGLY blame you for starting it..
…
and stupidly, you knew it was coming.. but you ignored it as though you’re innocent..
gimana kalo lo diposisi gue?
gimana kalo lo yg gue cela2 kaya mereka? yg gue ketawa-ketiwiin dibelakang..
gimana kalo gue ngomongin si ono dan si anu yg jelas2 ada faktanya kalo mereka bgini bgitu, ga kaya omongan b******t lo
…
AND AS A MATTER OF FACT, IT AIN’T A YACKETY YAK !!
c’mon.., everybody knows!
…
ga nyangka, mulut lo-lo smua isinya sampah doang.
…Kalo kata org yg gue kenal, “ko aneh? sampah ngomongin sampah..”
Have you ever felt soo stressed out that it made you stucked halfway up, and ignored other things?
kalo gue… sering!! its part of my life, actually.
Kalo udah gini, yg jadi fokus cuma satu.. gimana caranya biar ni problem selese, no matter what..
pdhl juntrungannya malah jd ga produktif. SHooT!
stress gue kali ini, as always, krn urusan team project yg deadlinenya besok siang! ga tau knp, kadang gue ngerasa “mending ngerjain tugas sendiri2 drpd harus berkelompok2 kaya anak tk”. Dan di sekolah gue.. guru2nya..uugggh.. love to randomly assign the groups. That means, you can either get good group or, u know, bad group. The fact that you’ll recognize it later as soon as youre dealing over a project like mine makes it even worse.
Dan udah keberapa kali yaa… gue dpt group yg ngaco banget a.k.a. ngga bisa diandelin. Well, maybe I overreact on every task that we have, so I always want everything to be done by the time…no no, I wanna finish it far away from the due date. Kenapa gue gini? krn tiap minggu, pasti ada paper/project.. dan ga cuman di satu kelas aja.. belum lagi ujian2 yg suka berbarengan sama tugas. Jadi..gue rasa wajar bgt kalo gue ga mem-procrastinate something so important like this, ya ga?
dan mau ga mau kalo udah dpt group yg nyantai begini, gue harus nempatin diri jadi “leader” mereka.. and trust me, motivating people is not easy! apalagi kalo mereka udah menggunakan berbagai ratus excuses mereka.. hhhhh…. pdhl kalo dpt nilai bagus, mereka jg yg kebagian..brrruuuffgghhhh..!!
trus td sore, saking udah ga tau mesti gimanaa lagiiii… akhirnya gue cuman bisa tidur kecape’an.. belajar ga bisa, ngerjain yg lain2 males.. nongkrongin screen monitor-pun ga guna 
trus pas bangun, hal yg paling ptama gue gue tuju adalah laptop.. well, ngga jg si.. gue kebangun gara2 temen gue yg sangat baik hati mbaca message kedepresian gue ke dia di FB dan buru2 nelf gue nawarin bantuan (krn dia ngambil kelas ini smster kmrn, luckily with the same prof.)..dan trus imel yg udah berapa hari ini gue tungguin dateng juga.. jadi batal deh bantuannya hehe..
oh well, yg penting skrg gue sedikit lega.. krn akhirnya temen2 kelompok gue yg baru disemester ini pada ngga enak ati dan menyelesaikan bagian mereka di project PERTAMA ttg Sarbanes-oxley act 404 ini beberapa saat yg lalu.. (ya iyalah.. udah berapa imel yg gue kirim, ajak2an gue buat meeting, dan prtanyaan2 dikelas yg gue lontarin, such as “hows your part? have you finished it? have you emailed it? how’s it? have you have you have you..?” *annoying memang, hihi*)
bener bener lega.. semogaaa nilainya bagus, amin!
..and because this is only the 1st assignment of this semester, hence I should put more effort next time.. (*.*)
nite nite.
ps. eh eh, besok valentine yaa? huhu ampe lupa kann..
aah tp bodo’ ah, pacar saya jg cuek2 aja tuu.. happy vals peeps!!
